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So here I am and it’s Labor Day and I’m going to be really honest with you.  I’m not ready for school to start tomorrow.  I was going through a bit of anxiety, depression (?) and burnout over the summer and I put off working on school.  I needed a break.

I didn’t want to think about it.  I didn’t want to work on it.  I didn’t want to really hear about it either.  I’ve been homeschooling for 14 years and needed a vacation from it. I guess with my first graduating and my youngest now going into 9th grade,  and my middle one becoming a junior it was a little overwhelming.  Plus I had a birthday party, a huge graduation party and a baby shower to plan.  They were all so much fun and I love planning parties!

Then just when I was ready to start working on school again……DISTRACTIONS!  What were those pesky time suckers?  A never-ending summer cold that kept putting me in the bed.  Cityville (I used it for fun and for a little bit of an escape at times.)  Teen drama.  Then came the biggest time and brain sucker of all….volleyball.  Wait… there’s not supposed to be crying and frustration in volleyball!

I won’t and can’t go into all the drama that has circled volleyball at the start of this season.  But suffice it to say that just because you homeschool, and your children play on an amazing homeschool team, doesn’t mean that you escape drama.  Oh, no it is everywhere.  At times I felt as though I had a walk on roll on Dance Moms!  Just without the name calling and cussing.  But I spent way too many days frustrated to the point of not being to focus on anything else.  I had too many days of trying to figure things out.  Too many days of dealing with an extremely upset daughter.  Too many days of not knowing whether we were coming or going.  But now it is all settled, I hope or at least for the moment. As far as I’m concerned it is over and now I can refocus.

Becca and I are coaching the JV team that my youngest Emily is on.  We are having a blast!  I love my team and my parents.  They are the best and no drama!  But getting there was a huge time sucker full of anger, confusion and tears. I’m so grateful for our director!   And here I am, finally getting our team underway and I’m so proud of them with our first game tomorrow and I still haven’t finished closing out last year’s school.  Don’t ask me about this year yet! 

I’m trying to get there as quick as I can!  I just had a mini panic attack this morning, but a bowl of mac and cheese and a quick prayer has made it all better.  I will have to adopt Scarlett’s motto (maybe just for today) “I can’t think about all that right now.  After all, tomorrow is another day.”  Today I will keep the distractions at a minimum and get done what I can get done and start over tomorrow.  I will take peace and claim it!